So today would have being Dads birthday, his 56th I believe (Like most dutiful sons I forget the parents age and just revert to calling them old :P (Yes I do get a small whack now and then!))

It hasn't really affected me that much, the only thing that I've done today that would have being different to all the other years is that I have had the 2-3 minute phonecall that we generally had on mine or his birthdays, we just weren't phone people so everything was kept specific with slight detours on how the younger siblings were doing or how my course at University was going etc etc, and we didn't phone each other up that often unless we had something important to say, so really I generally only talked to him on the phone about 6-8 times a year and generally saw him for a day about 3 times a year.

So while this day is a saddening reminder that he is no longer with us, it just doesn't really feel that I've lost something unless I think on it

I managed to confuse the mother the other day when she asked me what I would want to do for my birthday this thursday and I replied nothing really its only my 22nd.

I've never really being big at celebrating my birthdays, my 18th I went out to play snooker with a few friends, all the years I was at Uni I generally just went to see a film (21st was Memories of a Geisha, 19th I was playing bloodbowl while watching the superbowl) I may go watch another film this year I haven't decided up I'm not going to kick up a big deal over just another year.